Dont take your health for granted

Everyone knows this. Health is important, health should not be neglected, and yet we often only truly know this having experience the possibility of losing it.

This has been a month where i went for 2 doctors visit, 1 endoscopy, 1 ultrasound, 1 urine test. Just the thought of recounting what happen puts a chill to me.

It all started with a horrible bloating feeling after dinner about 3 weeks back. I have been having bloated stomach for like months or so, but it has never created much disturbance. Note. Not much, meaning it happened  a few times, but not enough to bother me to see the doctor for a referral.

When i had to go through the scope at the hospital, i was apprehensive with many thoughts in my head.
However, the good thing of it all, there was no growth, there were no stones in my gall bladder. Just a bacteria infection in my stomach and the GERD caused by acid reflux. Which will be worsen with Stress.

Anyway, i didnt want to dwell too much on the above, all in all, the doc says i'm stressed ( although i didnt think so), but to have the doctor ( okay, another doctor  whom i went to yesterday for a urine test because of my headache and frequent urination) says " there the flood gates go" when i started tearing, i cant help but to finally admit, i am emotionally unstable at times especially when people start to fuss over me when i'm sick, when i'm doing something good for them, when too much attention is on me. Or, even when we talk about relationship stuffs ( except the hub) of course.

All of us, whether we like it or not, may behave physically healthy and normal outside, will have some form of scars, or vulnerability inside us. These may be stress in built in us, our lifestyle resulting in our internal organs overworking, not resting enough, or even inflammation because of excessive caffeine, alcohol, sugar, dusty environment.

So, everyone, learn to love yourself. Learn to listen to your body. Do not wait till it's too late. Do not think you are not stressed or all superwoman or superman. Breathe and learn to let go. Learn to listen to your thoughts. Be positive.

A Solo Night in the Gardens

Finally a pic i've taken of my own to post on the blog. Presenting the latest feature in Singapore- Gardens by the Bay.

The hub has an engagement with the boys from the office and i was in the mood for doing some serious photography... It's been some time since i dig up the DSLR, even borrowed the tripod from the boss to go on this mission. Sadly, I didnt really know how to mount  the DLSR on the expensive tripod so pretty much had to rely my own that night to take the pic, with as steady hands as possible and yet, still armed with a heavy tripod.

It was a great night. A solo night to just shoot, see things and have some personal time.=)

Crossroads at 30

“You’re supposed to have moments of uncertainty about which path to take, because the twenties are full of crossroads.”- Lisa Kudrow’s Commencement Speech at Vassar College in May 2010, a humorous take on life in the twenties.

So, i was looking for an image on Crossroad, when i came across the above speech, and how truthful it was on what the Twenties are... However, if made me wonder, does that mean we gain clarity when we end our twenties and embark on our 30s??

For some reason, i felt the 30s present a harder matrixes of crossroads. If the twenties is about exploring personalities, growing as an individual, the 30s, present the opportunity to define one's life. While we may have a couple of job changes, or stabilise our career, then the question comes... "now what?".

For a woman, not only does the cross road daunts us, there is another huge Biological Clock that lays right smack in the middle following us no matter which path we take.

 For guys, this clock simply represent time and youth, but for us ladies, it also represents the limitation in the area of procreation one has further down the path, which ever path we take. And this is the exact limitation that sets many woman wondering, constantly thinking ... "What if?", " Should I...." or " Is it time?". It's this invisible clock in every woman's heart that probes us to wonder if settling down is the option, if giving up is the option, if it's worth.

So, what kind of life can one expect at one's crossroad when we hit the big 3 or more?

Does the Zone really ends??

a) A life of fashion, parties and champagne, wine ( i. e Sex and The City "Samantha")

b) A life of creativity, on the search for that love, for that pair of Manolo Blahnik, that piece of Art, passion in writing ( Carrie)

Something about these heels. They are pretty but they sure aint comfy. Something i will never to be able to pull off

c) Completing the woman's role by giving birth, being the perfect home-maker, the perfect wife living in the perfect apartment with the perfect husband ( speaks: the Stepford Wives, or Charlotte)

d) Or, is it the power career driven lawyer ( Miranda)

e) Or is it that much more? That cannot be classified into any of the above 4?

It's been 7 years since i was last hooked on Sex and the City episodes, and 7 years later, i find myself watching the re-runs, having a totally different perspectives altogether, It's like i've grown with this show, and now i can have a better appreciation what the ladies were going through ( of course not with the same magnitude of drama or sex). Haha

I also do notice, i am starting to deviate from the original style of what i've intended the blog to be, but shouldn the blog really capture what feels at that instant in time? I've been feeling impulsive lately, what with the possible thought of baby planning, probably thinking i'm not ready to settle, and another thought of that big biological clock ticking away at me, sometimes, i feel i'm back in my twenties with the random cluster of thoughts flying all over my head again. Have i somewhat, still feel i do not belong to the 30? To the real world and want to retreat to the safe haven of what the 20s can offer? Possibilities???

Night in the Museum

2 September: One day shy from our 6th anniversary. And here we are 6 years later, from the initial hanging out for drinks, wondering where to go next cos we simply didnt feel like ending the night to go back home, to now: him playing his computer games, and me just blogging away side by side.

To me, this is bliss.

We spent last night with the gang at the Singapore Night's Festival.

Magical Night at the Museum

Here, a picture of the very beautiful and magical looking Singapore Arts Museum. The atmosphere was great, and it's lovely to be out enjoying the variety of events, gigs, performance, admissions (free) to Museums. That's really a nice cool way to be out. It's really hard, actually when you are based in a tropical country like ours, to be out during the day when it gets sultry hot. So it's really a nice change, when everyone is out of the air conditioned malls, hitting out the road, enjoying the music, the hype and the lighting effects.

Times like this, i feel we are abit more alive. "we" here being Singapore. You know how shows, TV always "romanticised" huge Cities like New York, Paris, Milan ( well, there's a song named over it already, need i say more).  I think Singapore can be like that too, a very different extent naturally, but we are moving towards a cultural, interactive, outdoor, urban kinda mix with Night Festival being such a great start, well ( not really a start, since this is like the 3-4 th year i believe).

The saddest thing, if anything that prevents me from feeling more, is really .... the weather. Ever since young, and yes till now, even when i'm 30, i'm constantly wishing Singapore has temperature seasons, how i wish we have Winter, Autumn and Spring. Okay, if i have to add in just one more season, give me Autumn. Oh, just give me autumn. Give me the orange maple leaves, give me the chill wind, as i forsee myself all  wrapped up in a nice lovely cashmere scarf, armed with a hot cup of latte as i roamed along Botanic Gardens... looking at the lovely shades of red,orange and yellow sights before. Oh, i sure have got carried away...

Taken off the Web ( Google Image)

I know, even if with the really impressive Gardens by the Bay ( with the air-conditioned Domes, super trees and stuffs), i cant feel but still feel it's tad superficial. Magnificent .. Yes, but superficial as well.

taken when we visited the Garden By the Bay ( Super Trees) after work on a Friday

And perhaps one day, we will sing ( at least in our heart): "Singapore Singapore, Oooooo Singapore."