Crossroads at 30

“You’re supposed to have moments of uncertainty about which path to take, because the twenties are full of crossroads.”- Lisa Kudrow’s Commencement Speech at Vassar College in May 2010, a humorous take on life in the twenties.

So, i was looking for an image on Crossroad, when i came across the above speech, and how truthful it was on what the Twenties are... However, if made me wonder, does that mean we gain clarity when we end our twenties and embark on our 30s??

For some reason, i felt the 30s present a harder matrixes of crossroads. If the twenties is about exploring personalities, growing as an individual, the 30s, present the opportunity to define one's life. While we may have a couple of job changes, or stabilise our career, then the question comes... "now what?".

For a woman, not only does the cross road daunts us, there is another huge Biological Clock that lays right smack in the middle following us no matter which path we take.

 For guys, this clock simply represent time and youth, but for us ladies, it also represents the limitation in the area of procreation one has further down the path, which ever path we take. And this is the exact limitation that sets many woman wondering, constantly thinking ... "What if?", " Should I...." or " Is it time?". It's this invisible clock in every woman's heart that probes us to wonder if settling down is the option, if giving up is the option, if it's worth.

So, what kind of life can one expect at one's crossroad when we hit the big 3 or more?

Does the Zone really ends??

a) A life of fashion, parties and champagne, wine ( i. e Sex and The City "Samantha")

b) A life of creativity, on the search for that love, for that pair of Manolo Blahnik, that piece of Art, passion in writing ( Carrie)

Something about these heels. They are pretty but they sure aint comfy. Something i will never to be able to pull off

c) Completing the woman's role by giving birth, being the perfect home-maker, the perfect wife living in the perfect apartment with the perfect husband ( speaks: the Stepford Wives, or Charlotte)

d) Or, is it the power career driven lawyer ( Miranda)

e) Or is it that much more? That cannot be classified into any of the above 4?

It's been 7 years since i was last hooked on Sex and the City episodes, and 7 years later, i find myself watching the re-runs, having a totally different perspectives altogether, It's like i've grown with this show, and now i can have a better appreciation what the ladies were going through ( of course not with the same magnitude of drama or sex). Haha

I also do notice, i am starting to deviate from the original style of what i've intended the blog to be, but shouldn the blog really capture what feels at that instant in time? I've been feeling impulsive lately, what with the possible thought of baby planning, probably thinking i'm not ready to settle, and another thought of that big biological clock ticking away at me, sometimes, i feel i'm back in my twenties with the random cluster of thoughts flying all over my head again. Have i somewhat, still feel i do not belong to the 30? To the real world and want to retreat to the safe haven of what the 20s can offer? Possibilities???